A Phone Call To Heaven
Mom
I dreamed and woke up afraid
Alone in my bed, you were not by my side
But in my state, the thought of your company,
Was all that I needed
And I was at ease, knowing, everything was all right
You are my mother, and I owe you everything
Because of you, I am now a man
You have helped me grow
And gain knowledge that only a mother could teach
And on this day
I am reminded of just how important you are to my life
A life that you made
A life that you gave
I may be a man because of you
But even, as a woman,
You were stronger than any man I have ever known
And I will always, love you for that
Forever and always,
Your son,
Blake Robert Horsley
Thank You Mom For Letting Me See… Ten Years of Heaven
By Blake R. Horsley
Over and over
I think of my mom
Over and over
I think what should have come
She was sweet
She was innocent
But she suffered
She was kind
She was affectionate
But she suffered
Why did my mom have to struggle?
Why did my mom not have an easier life?
Why did my mind want to give up?
Why did my mind want to pick up the knife?
I was seven when she tried to leave
I was seven when I saw her struggle just to breathe
But she came through
And blamed no one for her pain
Even when the clouds were gray
Even when the sky poured rain
Mom, stay with me
Mom, please don’t leave
Mom, understand this
I am not mad at you
And ten years since you’ve passed
I still miss you
You gave me my life
You gave my dad kisses and hugs
And you were loved, more than anything
By God up above
And a family that wanted to give you nothing but care and affection
With a son who just wanted to love you for all of our shared blessings
My older brother is my hero
And you shaped him into a good man
One I could turn to
When life just made pain hard to understand
To this day
I cannot comprehend
Why your mind played tricks on you
And why your sadness wanted to consume
And defeat you
But you never gave up
Even when you cried for help
Even when I was twelve
And you needed me to be strong enough
To be a hero
Just for a day
Today I am proud because,
Though, you are gone
You let me save you so that you could live on
And you did for many years
And now it has been many years since I’ve seen you
You have been gone from this earth since September 19th, 2013
But you are still with me almost every night that I dream
I love you with all my heart
And I remember the pain
But I am content now
Because I am finally okay
Even under the rain
Okay enough to face any day
To be honest, more than anyone
You made it that way
I miss you phoning me
I miss you saying hello
I miss you rubbing my head
And our love, I’ll never let go
You were an angel on earth
And to everyone who knew you
You had so much worth
And more than anything I must thank you for my life
A life that you gave birth
Thank you mom for staying with me in spirit
Thank you mom for bringing heaven down to me
Thank you mom for giving me life
Thank you mom
For letting me see
I am positive
Your spirit is free