Paralyzed Conscience
When the world is asleep
I am awake
When the world is awake
I am asleep
Dreaming in a state of paralysis
I beg to my dreams, wake me
For only then can I cry
For only then I can make sense of why
I fight to move
But breathing is easy
I wish the world and I could relate
I wish my ceiling was an escape
I wish my ceiling didn’t stare down in my depressed consciousness
I ache without pain
Dreaming of the night again
My pills put me to sleep
So sad I am I cannot even weep
I spill my drink
My mind races to think
Before I can even blink
I talk to myself aloud
With no answer found
I listen to music on this precious day
Awake for once, while the world goes to and fro
I write with the blinds closed
I don’t pay attention to the ceiling
I look through the cracks of my blinds
And I see the sky
I see no reason to feel
And so I let go, and to my greater power
I submit and I kneel
