I screamed in sleep
Drowning in dreams
Drowning so deep
Past week decisions caught up to me
Panic attacks weighed down on me
Pop another pill, it will help
And so I did, taking a big gulp
Antipsychotics that leave me robotic
Blind diagnostics
Medicated optics
It happened again
And I just couldn’t stop it
I woke not knowing where I went
Pain was gone, for it was sent
My mind, an empty space up for rent
And the thoughts were lent, back to the heavens above
Back to the hell, the place I seem to just love
Get me back onto my feet
Get me back on my own street
Give me back my only heartbeat
The hard, the soft
The pills I pop
It has to stop
Or the knife I’ll drop
I puke the misery of yesterday
I call for the mystery of everyday
I ask the sky, make mistakes go away
But here I am
And here I’ve stayed
Wondering why, the drip wont dry
Wondering why, I try and try
The sky leaves me small in a world so big
My own grave exists, as I've begun to dig
I‘ve fallen in the hole
Hanging on to all I love
I wish I could fly
Like the birds that that call
Like the doves above
