I embrace an unnatural slain
The pain washes away, seeping down the cracks
It itches where it heals
And so I pick the scabs
I pick, every waking moment, I pick
I cannot heal, for I pick
The bleeding will not stop
Am I the cause of my own pain
It’s insane to think I am
For I beg myself to let go of what hurts
And yet,
It is I who continues to make it so
Let go
Let go
I scream inside
Let go
All over again
But the pain is persistent
And I cannot stop making it worse
This existence is absurd
I continue making it worse
As I do not move
Am I the cause of my curse
What am I saying
What am I to do
Is this living
Or is this dying
For it is not happiness
For it is real
In a life that feels fake
This must be dying
I am left crying
