Please don't judge me
I'm just mentally ill
I just hurt so often
I try to make sense of my mind
A truth I just cannot find
And so I write
To find purpose in the night
And so I write
To make sense of my pain
To make sense of gray skies with no rain
I hurt when I pace
I race back to sleep
And vivid dreams are all I see
And terrible dreams are what I see
Waking up I just want to be
Different
Waking up I just want to be
Happy
But the anxiety takes hold
Fear of the future
Fear of what I'm told
Fear of the past
Fear of getting old
Sadness, for I hurt
Regret for who I've hurt
Remembering who I've been
Seeing myself now in something
Too real to be a dream
